it seems i have no more will to fight. how can i keep this pace up of studying 16 hrs a day? for 2 more days?

it is now when the recent words of a couple of friends sing loudest in my mind.
along with reminders of why i'm here.

i can't help but doubt i will be any good at this.
that i'm learning what i need to.
or that i'll even pass the silly thing.

but i must go on, somehow, in this area where i never needed to exercise faith & trust before...
somehow i must trust that he can use, yes, even me...
despite any stress or frustration as the pressure mounts.
despi